Hate: it's correlation to Love

I was listening to one of my dad's playlists on shuffle mode, when I had a weird thought:
What if everyone would stop being so rude to everyone else? I try my hardest not to be rude, to push, to order, or to control. But I can't help feeling like every second of my life I break that idea. Someone is hurt, offended by something I do. And in a way I am hurt by their being hurt.
Emotions are complicated, and they are strong. Very strong. There comes a point in which you no longer think about what you should do, and start to just do things. You destroy those around you. You do what you will later regret.
So, as I thought about this some more, I realized that I have done so much to hold to my standards, but instead of trying to prevent the harm, I made the sword hit harder. And now I realize that I have not only made it hit harder, but faster. I make more mistakes, and more people are harmed. And I hate myself because of that. So I reach the point where I am rude to everyone, because I am angry at myself.
And this is how emotions work. It hurts. But I know one thing now, from just writing this post: What makes you emotional makes you human. Hate is nothing more than love in disguise. and so, with full sincerity, I must apologize for all the harm I have caused and will cause, not just for everyone, but most importantly, to myself.
Maybe this will change how I act in the future, but the one thing about the future that we know to be true is that it can never be predicted perfectly. We have all lost so much, and gained much, and we will continue to do so, whether that comes at the suffering of others. It's what makes us human. It's what makes us everything we are, it is what lets us see clearly in the fog of modern societies.
Trust your emotions: They are you, and you are them.